Tuesday, 13 December 2011

I don't expect much in relationship

No I don't you to buy me a expensive gift. Really the things I want in a relationship are simple:

  • I want you to be my bestfriend - I want to be able to talk to you about everything. I want to not be afraid of how you're going to judge me and I to be able to fool around with you when we're together.
  • I want you be be there for me - I want to be able to lean on you when I'm having tough time. No, that does not mean you have to be there for me 24/7. I expect you to trust me to be able to carry out my own problem and responsibilities.
  • I want you to love me - Say that you love me and only when you mean it. Don't tell that you love me unless you're 100% sure.
  • I want us have a fun - I want to be able to enjoy the times with you. I don't want to waste our time going to say "I love you" and "I miss you" all the times. I want to hang out with you and learn more about you because that way we will fall even more deeply in love with each other.

Those people who don't care about school

What are you doing with your life? You're barely a teenager, can even be call a kid, yet you go out and act like your the coolest grown up ever. Right now, more than half of your responsibilities should go toward school. Not on how many dates you can score or how many drinks you can hold.Get your act together before you grow up and regret all the things that you have done.

Saturday, 10 December 2011

To my friends who never left me

Thank you so much :) I just want you all know that I'm glad to met all of you, you were all there to love and care for me. Thank you for cheering me up and making me laugh whenever I'm sad, even though I keep fucking up you never left. I love all of you and I don't know what to do without you.

Monday, 5 December 2011

My class year 2011 :)

Let me introduce you to my classmate and my teacher. 

From left: Mdm Karen, Dayang Nur Aliah, Sheila Dunggat, Nur Syafiqah, Nur Farhana, Nur Atiqa, Emelda, Nur Shazarina, Shanenelina, Lucy, Leia, Veleny, Florina, Mahsuri, Nurazrin, Ivy, Josephine, Azreen, Malissa, Mdm kho.

From left: Alan Ryan, Mcbryan, Desmond, Ramsey, Steve, Teddy, Simeon, And Athan.

In front: Maxi, Tonny, And Elliot.

I'm jealous of those long relationship couples.

They have much commitment. I wish I have someone to call mine for a month/years at the time. Someone to hold my in my arms whenever I want. Someone can I go for anything, someone who could comfort me at my time of need. Those relationship have something that everyone always want. Trust. I wish I had something similar like that. I wish I could just be happy with the person I would love, for a very long time.

Sunday, 4 December 2011


I used to wish for you to be mine, but not anymore. I got tired and now I have to move on. You may say you've given up on me, but you can't really say you've given up. If you didn't even try in the first place, right? I'm glad that I can see you smile even on picture. Now it's my turn to smile. My turn to be loved. I secretly hope that you'll run after me. Hopefully before I've completely move on *finger cross*. I may see you again, yeah somewhere else kan mun terjumpa, might smile in your presence. But I will make sure not to let you hurt my heart again. Never again.

P/s: I miss you, but I have to do this

How to keep relationship

  • Communicate: Talk about things, the good and bad
  • Built trust
  • Be honest
  • Be faithful
  • Be there for another
  • Make time for another
  • Leave the past to the past, which include ex's
  • Know that having argument are normal
  • Know that you won't always be happy
  • Don't expect change
  • Appreciate the flaws
  • Appreciate each other
  • Become best friends
  • Lastly, love each other unconditionally

Why you would probably hate going to the movies with me

  • I laugh at stupidest things 
  • I throw popcorn at other people 
  • I will text
  • I will turn to you and quote the funny prat that just happen
  • I shift my position a lot
  • I slurpp my ice :p

My Favourite Types of Hugs

  • Tight hugs - The one where they just hug you super tight for long times with no words
  • Unexpected hugs - The one where you're just doing your own thing and they come from behind and hug you unexpectedly
  • Lift up hugs - The one where you run up to them, and they have their arms all wide, and you lift up your legs and they carry you
  • Spinning hugs - The one where they hug you and spin you around in circles

Saturday, 3 December 2011

"Why don't you just ask her?"

People always ask me, "If you care for her too much, why don't you tell her? You've like her for so long! Why don't you just ask her?". Okay plain and simple, I'm scared of rejection. I'm scared if I pour my heart out of you. It will end up hurting me. I'm scared that if I tell you, our friendship will never be the same. And I know if I tell you, you wouldn't feel the same :/ It's just something I got to live with.


FAKE FRIENDS : Never ask for food
REAL FRIENDS : Are the reason you have no food

FAKE FRIENDS : Calls your parent Mr/Mrs
REAL FRIENDS : Calls you parent Mom/Dad

FAKE FRIENDS : Never seen you cry
REAL FRIENDS : Cry with you

FAKE FRIENDS : Borrow your stuff for a few days and give it back
REAL FRIENDS : Keep you stuff so long and forget it's yours

FAKE FRIENDS : Knew a few thing about you
REAL FRIENDS : Could write a book about you

FAKE FRIENDS : Would knock you front the door
REAL FRIENDS : Walk right in and say "I'm home"

FAKE FRIENDS : Will help you when you're fall over
REAL FRIENDS : Will jump on top on you and shout "sandwich"

FAKE FRIENDS : Are around for awhile
REAL FRIENDS : Are for life

FAKE FRIENDS : Say "Love ya" in joking manner
REAL FRIENDS : Say "I love you" and mean it

FAKE FRIENDS : Will read this
REAL FRIENDS : Will steal this

When you're feeling alone and you think nobody cares, read this cause it's absolutely true.

  • Forget the rude remark
  • Every night someone think about you before they go to sleep
  • At least 15 love you in this worlds
  • You mean the world to someone
  • Always remember the compliments you received
  • Someone that you don't even know exist loves you
  • There are 2 at  least people in this world that could die for you
  • When you think the world has turned it's back to you, take a look.
  • When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good always comes out of it.
  • The only reason someone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

Friday, 2 December 2011

Dear you,

I  miss you. I wonder if you miss me too, or if I ever crossed in your mind. Because you seems to cross my mind everyday. Just the though of you make me smile. Whenever I get the text from you, I get this feeling in my stomach. My day isn't complete if don't talk to you. Did you know? You have the ability to make me smile, without even trying.

Saturday, 26 November 2011

Dear bestfriends,

Thanks for always being here for me through all times. I love you and I'm always am going to be here for you no matter what. Thanks for making me smile. Thanks for crying with me. Thanks for making me feel like I'm not alone. Thanks for the laugh and memories. Thanks for everything :)

Friday, 25 November 2011

Have you ever have that feeling.

When you feel like nobody care about you or nobody even notice you if you disappear. Well I do I feel like nobody care about me no more, nobody want talk to me no more. I don't think anyone even notice me no more. Friends say they care, but at the end I'm here dealing with all this problem I have myself D:

Dear Future Girlfriend,

I don't want to see you everyday. I don't want talk to you on the phone every night. We can text all day everyday but I don't want to get used to seeing you everyday. I feel's like that how couples get tired of each other and break up fast as fuck. I'd like to see and talk to you on the phone every other day. I'm not a type of guy who would ask you to do this and that. I am a really easy guy, I don't mind if you talk to other guy out there. I understand you need you own space, so do I? I know you have friends to hang out with so you don't always have to be with me, call me or text me. I want you to have fun with your friends. I don't get mad easy either so don't worry if I'm gonna get mad at you over a little scare you. But at the end of the day, I just want you to be honest with me, and treat me the same way I treated you.

Your future boyfriends.

Tuesday, 22 November 2011

Dear mom,

You're my bestfriends and I know I take you for granted 50% of the time, and I'm really sorry. You're the most beautiful woman on this earth and the most selfless, so please just do this one thing for yourself for once "leave my dad". He's horrible, he breaks your heart and trust, he annoying, and I hate how he almost never makes you truly happy. I know you can do better than him. So please, just leave him. I love you so much and I know you're smart, just please do it.



Photo by; Farz

Saturday, 19 November 2011


I wish somebody could be crazy for me, see me in the street and think: "Girls, he's the boy I've dreaming of." Just simple little things. I wish I could be the person you smile at when their name appear in conversation, I wish I could be the person you lay awake at night and think about. How you'd like to make his world, make him happy. Make him complete. I'd like to feel you need me, I'd like to feel you want me. I want you to want me, I wish love wasn't so complicated. I wish you could pick out parts of me that you love. I wish you could laugh  along with my laugh and we'd be a big bubble of joy. I'd like to make you happy, make you feel whole. I wish you'd consider me perfect, I wish you'd stop and think about me at point in the day. I wish you wanted me as you own :)

Monday, 14 November 2011

I miss you

I miss the little things just hearing your voice, asking you how was your day, telling you my last goodnight before I knocked out. I hate over thinking at night, I hate not be able to fall asleep because of the pain in my heart so much. I hate myself for pretending like nothing happen and I'm perfectly fine with people around me. I should be listen to my heart when it told me to be more careful to not fall for you. I tried so much to push you away at first because I never wanted to feel this pain again. But I took the risk. I took it without realizing it. I had fallen for you even when I tried so hard not to. But it's fine, don't worry about me because I can make it through this, I had once and I can do it again. My heart is strong and you will always have a place in my heart. I guess, we will see what the future holds for us :)